看“滴水湖畔”博客：新作小说《光环》读后感

第一篇：看“滴水湖畔”博客：新作小说《光环》读后感

看“滴水湖畔”博客：新作小说《光环》读后感

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几天前，我看了好友滴水湖畔处女作：《光环》，并每集予以收藏，原想待短篇小说刊登完后，装订成册，分发给一些不会上网、或无条件上网的连队知青朋友们传阅，看“滴水湖畔”博客：新作小说《光环》读后感。本没有写读后感的打算，原因有二，一、我很钦佩作者的魄力和胆略，感谢作者以小说的形式披露那一段不堪回首的岁月。其小说历史事件中的真实性胜于小说的娱读性，虽然作者将云南知青的悲怆故事，集中在“阿宝”一个人身上，并一再声明，不要对号入座，如有雷同，纯属巧合，但我们还是看到了书中“阿宝”、“小周”、“害羞草”、“版纳一棵草”等人物、场景，事态的演变过程和真实原型，无不在知青群体中忽隐忽现，其历史性和真实性不容质疑！

二、“阿宝”在那个年代，泯灭人性的发迹，以及“阿宝”在现实社会中不知反省过去的罪错，且又不甘心失落的一生，恰如其分地再现了“阿宝”时代的错觉及道德的沦丧。

很是担心，曾经心狠手辣、歇斯底里的“阿宝”看了小说后，一时想不开真的会重演从十八层高楼纵身跳下，以身谢罪，再现没有刑律予以追究的非正常死亡，到时我们剩下的只有叹息！

我想缄其三口，但还是坳不过昔日的知青朋友三番五次的电话催促，OUT般地谈些体会，并借此把我们连队（仅仅一个连队）曾经发生过的一些事件和各读者交代一下，看看小说：“光环”和其有否惊人的相似。

1970年4月28日，云南生产建设兵团一师二团七营三连，聚集着上海知青84名，虽然曾是一个学校的同学、又是街坊邻居，这群十六七岁涉世不深的少男少女们在强权政治、红色恐怖下，演绎着各自苦涩人生，小说中的“阿宝”很会适应并利用当时的极左环境。

一、1970年4月到连队，半年后发生了现役军人指导员施怀军奸污上海女知青贾某，施被开除党籍、军籍、移送军事法庭，刑满释放后，又犯奸淫女护士罪被处以极刑。

二、1970年11月上海知青淡某因犯小错，被批斗关押两天两夜，棍棒皮带抽打，嘶裂的嚎叫声响彻云空，次日深夜，同伴黎某潜入关押点将其救出，并一同去师部告状，读后感《看“滴水湖畔”博客：新作小说《光环》读后感》。

三、1971年7月，上海女知青朱梅华，因唱所谓禁歌被押上台批斗，污其资产阶级思想，散布靡靡之音并剪去其头发。

四、1972年9月，上海知青小周，因深夜思念病故亡父跪拜东方，批斗三日，返城前在其档案内记载着：“阶级立场有问题，不拜太阳拜月亮”。

五、1973年6月，嵩某为主的上海知青五人，因不满高压管理顶撞干部，被当场捆绑，现场批斗后陆续逃离连队，返沪后一直未归。

六、1974年4月2日21：30分，上海女知青朱梅华从宿舍去如厕，神秘失踪，生不见人死不见尸，虽经多方查找，至今了无音信，至此连队女知青逃离大半，多数远嫁他乡。

七、1974年6月，上海知青祝某，以朱梅华失踪案嫌疑人身份被拘押，每日吊打，皮开肉绽，视力青光，不堪忍受，自杀未果，被救后，继续严刑逼供，案件不了了之，身心倍受摧残。返沪后病故，享年42岁。

八、1975年5月，连队指导员蒋井杉长期奸淫其未成年侄女，东窗事发，虽将朱梅华失踪案一并侦讯，却未有进展，草草判其七年徒刑了事。

九、1976年6月，重庆女知青常兴亚和同乡知青邓某谈恋爱，被小说中的“阿宝”带人深夜“捉奸”，不堪受辱后留下遗书，跳入红宝水库自尽，其母闻讯后精神失常。

十、1976年9月，上海知青赵某被污在“毛伟人”追悼会上发出冷笑，当晚组织批斗，被其先行得知后侥幸逃脱。

知青的一页，随着历史的篇章早已翻过，返城后，时间在冲淡一切，同时也冲淡了对“阿宝”的憎恨，因为我们都已近耳顺之年。但“阿宝”的努力一直犹如水中月，开公司破产了，留下了一屁股债，开“书记棋牌室”，又被取缔了，听“阿宝”说最近准备著书立传，不知“阿宝”如何来评价自己曾经辉煌的历史。很会折腾的“阿宝”，依恋昔日的光环如同知青们遭受的苦难同样不会被忘却，何况四十年后的今天，仍有人在赞颂“文革”的必须和“上山下乡”的必要，把云南孟定千万知青的抗争，泣鬼神的惊天一跪，罔顾成扎根边疆的“壮举”，这不得不引起我们警觉，在涉及到常兴亚先受辱、后恐吓、再自尽的罪错问题上，难怪“阿宝”毫无愧疚地告诫我们：“不要用现在的眼光来看过去的事，此事轮到谁，云南知青干部都会这么干”，如此之言，不但亵渎了早逝的亡灵，而且把知青中受人尊敬的一部分好的“阿宝”也拖入左的旋涡。

在现实中，有关“上山下乡”遇难者的话题仍显沉重，尤其涉及到左的路线导致非正常死亡，女知青受辱，群体遭受非人道的政治迫害，决不会在“阿宝”光环的照耀下而失去记忆，也不会依“阿宝”所渲染的“天下知青是一家”来得轻松，就像所谓祝贺“上山下乡”四十周年的庆典上，酒未过三巡，年迈的知青们却打成一团，110出警、120救场，我想，作为组织者的“阿宝”心里很是疑惑：他们还在发泄旧日的怨愤？谁之过啊？“阿宝”？“上山下乡”？反正，我们没有顶着“带血的光环”，生活在亡灵的追逐中……

2011年8月27日

第二篇：看《喜福会》小说后的英文读后感

The Reading Report about The Joy Luck Club

Reading the novel is not the first time of my knowing The Joy Luck Club.When I watched the film , the meaning of the title , the theme of the novel , the reason for the arrangement of stories from four mothers and their daughters and other important things were all unknown to me.But I knew that was my type for it is about feelings between mothers and daughters , and especially chinese speaking Eglish.Amy Tan , a Chinese American writer , is the author of the book in which she explors the mother-daughter relationships.Originally , the relationships between mother and daughter seem to be quite complex in a family but in Amy Tan's work , it is perfectly typical for its portrayal of conflicts between the traditional Chinese mothers speaking shabby English and the open wholly Americanized daughters who just wear a Chinese face but speak fluent English.I never think it is richly dramatical , and instead these kinds of conflicts , in fact , truly ecists in many Chinese immigrants' family.The novel is written impressively and deeply especially , I think , in understanding of mothers' love for their daughters for reasons that the previous experience of her with her mother provided the basis for her novel.It is said that the exprience of anthor is similar to that of Jingmei woo.Maybe , the novel implies the deep and complex feelings of auther for her mother and her closest relatives in China.It gives me a greatly deep impression that the book is begun with Feathers From a Thousand LI Away.It penetrates the mothers' hope and love for their daughters through a swan's feather.Through the old woman's words “In America I will have a daughter just like me.But over there nobody will say her worth is measured by the loudness of her husband's belch.Over there nobody will look down on her, because I will make her speak only perfect American English.And over there she will always be too full to swallow any sorrow!She will know my meaning, because I will give her this swan—a creature that became more than what was hoped for.” and the mothers' former tragic sufferings , we will find that all the mothers are in hope of their daughters never suffering from their sufferings.And the mothers waited, year after year, for the day , they could tell their daughters it is their hope through a feather of the swan in perfect American English.At first , it is a little difficult to understand the

reason for these words.However , through the whole novel , in fact , you will find the old woman represents the four mothers , the feather of swan embodies the hope of mothers for their daughters.These sentences show implicitly the feelings of author and her understandings for mothers.In fact , in the Joy Luck Club , the feather indeed is gained by Jingmei Woo.And from the beginning to the end ,the feather has been existing.Only if one high-quality novel , like a perfect verse , needs you spending much time reading once more , you will understand something.I thought that the novel is loosely plotted and is in disorder.But the fact verifies that I am wrong.Through the whole story , the novel begins with the death of Jingmei's mother and ends in Jingmei visiting China to see the twin-half sisters whom her mother had been forced to abandon when the Japanese attacked China many years ago.What's more , in detail , the stories of four mothers and four daughters have relative connections in theme about love between them and the mothers' hope for their daughters.And the theme shows the comflicts and harmonization between different cultures.Then I think why the author titled the novel “ Joy Luck Club ”.I am puzzled by it and the purpose of writer.The name of club made mention of by Jingmei's mother.And the author directly titling the novel the name of their meeting implies her feelings for her mother.I can guess that the title originated from a kind of hope or belief.According to mothers' former sufferings , they were not happy.Even at the present , all of them hides the previous tragic experiences.Maybe , the club is a place where they can pretend to be happy or avoid the past memory or worries or even the shock of culture.Reading the novel is as we are reading our life and then think our past , present and futere.Especially , the conflict between Waverly Jang and her mother impresses me most.Waverly is a woman who is quite independent-mined and intelligent , but her mother's constant criticism is terribly annoying.She once had a gift for international chess.however , when she realized her mother taking advantage of her achievement and talent to show off in public , especially to the strangers , she felt terribly ashamed and annoyed.She shouted to “ you can not make me ”.From then on , her mother felt cold at Waverly and were particularabout her favorite things.In

fact , I think Waverly felt sacred subconsciously at letting her mother down and something that she did was aimed at flattering her mother.When waverly brought her boyfriend , Rich , to her families , her mother just smiled but she still was particular about Rich's appearance , having many spots on his face.Description about the conflicts of manners between Chinese tradition and American notions has given me a greatly deep impression and quite interesting.These words of “ And then he had helped himself to big portions of the shrimp and snow peas , not realizing he should have taken only a polite spoonful, until everybody had had a morsel.” vividly express the American character of being casual which counts as discourtesy in China.The part of Rich criticizing her mother's cooking is quite funny and impressive.Our Chinese habit of making disparaging remarks seems to be extremely common.Being modest and avoiding showing off are parts of Chinese traditional manners.Her mother complaining about “ This dish not salty enough , no flavor ” , in fact , was a cue to eat some and proclaim it it the best she had ever made.But the Rich did not understand.From the following description of her mother being horrified , I judged that her mother was strongly objective against Rich and even their marriage.Waverly also had such an opinion.But I am wrong and from their conversation I understand something more important.Mother is the only one that understands their daughters or sons in the world.And none of the mothers do not love their children.And the heaty conversattion can make a strong bridge between the different generation or even the peonple from the different cultures.I find that if you would not like to tell your hearty words out , others are not able to know what you are and what you think.People each have different opinions about the same things.Waverly had thought that her mother disapproved of her marriage and hated her Rich.However , her mother's meaningful words surprised Waverly and even me.Just be particular about who I really care for and love.It occured to me that whoever we hurt is always who we really love for reasons that others would not care for our complaint.Yes , who will care for those who you do not love ? The answer is known by us fron the beginning to the end.It is the love for Waverly that her mother has been showing her.Waverly , a wholly Americanized girl , never trully knew her mother and was ignorant of the love

for her.Indeed , the language and the culture did make a great difference in the exchange of feelings , which is a terribly high barrier between Waverly and her mother , also between other three mothers and their daughters.But love and understandings , finally will prevail over others.Personally , through the whole novel , the conflict between mothers and daughters , virtually , is that of the cultures between the East and the West.Mothers represent the classic, traditional Chinese culture but the daughters are the symbol of just , free , open and modern American one , which are two kinds of contradictory elements.However , through the whole novel , it is easier to find that finally they can understand each other and be in harmony.When Jing-Mei saw her twin-half sisters , she was surprised at this kind of familiarity.“And now I also see what part of me is Chinese.It is so obvious.It is my family.It is in our blood.After all these years, it can finally be let go.” shows that Jing-Mei understood her mother's stubbornness and love and was struck by mother's greatness.The resolution of the contradiction shows that the cultures of the East and the West can be in harmony with each other.

第三篇：看《喜福会》小说后的英文读后感

The Reading Report about The Joy Luck Club Reading the novel is not the first time of my knowing The Joy Luck Club.When I watched the film , the meaning of the title , the theme of the novel , the reason for the arrangement of stories from four mothers and their daughters and other important things were all unknown to me.But I knew that was my type for it is about feelings between mothers and daughters , and especially chinese speaking Eglish.Amy Tan , a Chinese American writer , is the author of the book in which she explors the mother-daughter relationships.Originally , the relationships between mother and daughter seem to be quite complex in a family but in Amy Tan's work , it is perfectly typical for its portrayal of conflicts between the traditional Chinese mothers speaking shabby English and the open wholly Americanized daughters who just wear a Chinese face but speak fluent English.I never think it is richly dramatical , and instead these kinds of conflicts , in fact , truly ecists in many Chinese immigrants' family.The novel is written impressively and deeply especially , I think , in understanding of mothers' love for their daughters for reasons that the previous experience of her with her mother provided the basis for her novel.It is said that the exprience of anthor is similar to that of Jingmei woo.Maybe , the novel implies the deep and complex feelings of auther for her mother and her closest relatives in China.It gives me a greatly deep impression that the book is begun with Feathers From a Thousand LI Away.It penetrates the mothers' hope and love for their daughters through a swan's feather.Through the old woman's words “In America I will have a daughter just like me.But over there nobody will say her worth is measured by the loudness of her husband's belch.Over there nobody will look down on her, because I will make her speak only perfect American English.And over there she will always be too full to swallow any sorrow!She will know my meaning, because I will give her this swan—a creature that became more than what was hoped for.” and the mothers' former tragic sufferings , we will find that all the mothers are in hope of their daughters never suffering from their sufferings.And the mothers waited, year after year, for the day , they could tell their daughters it is their hope through a feather of the swan in perfect American English.At first , it is a little difficult to understand the reason for these words.However , through the whole novel , in fact , you will find the old woman represents the four mothers , the feather of swan embodies the hope of mothers for their daughters.These sentences show implicitly the feelings of author and her understandings for mothers.In fact , in the Joy Luck Club , the feather indeed is gained by Jingmei Woo.And from the beginning to the end ,the feather has been existing.Only if one high-quality novel , like a perfect verse , needs you spending much time reading once more , you will understand something.I thought that the novel is loosely plotted and is in disorder.But the fact verifies that I am wrong.Through the whole story , the novel begins with the death of Jingmei's mother and ends in Jingmei visiting China to see the twin-half sisters whom her mother had been forced to abandon when the Japanese attacked China many years ago.What's more , in detail , the stories of four mothers and four daughters have relative connections in theme about love between them and the mothers' hope for their daughters.And the theme shows the comflicts and harmonization between different cultures.Then I think why the author titled the novel “ Joy Luck Club ”.I am puzzled by it and the purpose of writer.The name of club made mention of by Jingmei's mother.And the author directly titling the novel the name of their meeting implies her feelings for her mother.I can guess that the title originated from a kind of hope or belief.According to mothers' former sufferings , they were not happy.Even at the present , all of them hides the previous tragic experiences.Maybe , the club is a place where they can pretend to be happy or avoid the past memory or worries or even the shock of culture.Reading the novel is as we are reading our life and then think our past , present and futere.Especially , the conflict between Waverly Jang and her mother impresses me most.Waverly is a woman who is quite independent-mined and intelligent , but her mother's constant criticism is terribly annoying.She once had a gift for international chess.however , when she realized her mother taking advantage of her achievement and talent to show off in public , especially to the strangers , she felt terribly ashamed and annoyed.She shouted to “ you can not make me ”.From then on , her mother felt cold at Waverly and were particularabout her favorite things.In fact , I think Waverly felt sacred subconsciously at letting her mother down and something that she did was aimed at flattering her mother.When waverly brought her boyfriend , Rich , to her families , her mother just smiled but she still was particular about Rich's appearance , having many spots on his face.Description about the conflicts of manners between Chinese tradition and American notions has given me a greatly deep impression and quite interesting.These words of “ And then he had helped himself to big portions of the shrimp and snow peas , not realizing he should have taken only a polite spoonful, until everybody had had a morsel.” vividly express the American character of being casual which counts as discourtesy in China.The part of Rich criticizing her mother's cooking is quite funny and impressive.Our Chinese habit of making disparaging remarks seems to be extremely common.Being modest and avoiding showing off are parts of Chinese traditional manners.Her mother complaining about “ This dish not salty enough , no flavor ” , in fact , was a cue to eat some and proclaim it it the best she had ever made.But the Rich did not understand.From the following description of her mother being horrified , I judged that her mother was strongly objective against Rich and even their marriage.Waverly also had such an opinion.But I am wrong and from their conversation I understand something more important.Mother is the only one that understands their daughters or sons in the world.And none of the mothers do not love their children.And the heaty conversattion can make a strong bridge between the different generation or even the peonple from the different cultures.I find that if you would not like to tell your hearty words out , others are not able to know what you are and what you think.People each have different opinions about the same things.Waverly had thought that her mother disapproved of her marriage and hated her Rich.However , her mother's meaningful words surprised Waverly and even me.Just be particular about who I really care for and love.It occured to me that whoever we hurt is always who we really love for reasons that others would not care for our complaint.Yes , who will care for those who you do not love ? The answer is known by us fron the beginning to the end.It is the love for Waverly that her mother has been showing her.Waverly , a wholly Americanized girl , never trully knew her mother and was ignorant of the love for her.Indeed , the language and the culture did make a great difference in the exchange of feelings , which is a terribly high barrier between Waverly and her mother , also between other three mothers and their daughters.But love and understandings , finally will prevail over others.Personally , through the whole novel , the conflict between mothers and daughters , virtually , is that of the cultures between the East and the West.Mothers represent the classic, traditional Chinese culture but the daughters are the symbol of just , free , open and modern American one , which are two kinds of contradictory elements.However , through the whole novel , it is easier to find that finally they can understand each other and be in harmony.When Jing-Mei saw her twin-half sisters , she was surprised at this kind of familiarity.“And now I also see what part of me is Chinese.It is so obvious.It is my family.It is in our blood.After all these years, it can finally be let go.” shows that Jing-Mei understood her mother's stubbornness and love and was struck by mother's greatness.The resolution of the contradiction shows that the cultures of the East and the West can be in harmony with each other.